I am not shocked that there are not warm lines for disabled people. But everytime i have to reach for one, and there isn't one. It makes me angry, and sad

For those not in the know a warm line, is a mental health resource, that with trained people that doesn't attempt to do rescues. Usually with call takers that have training/experience in the issues faced by a particular group. It's not 988. They will attempt rescue. They will transfer you into 988 and attempt to facilatate the best intervention, if your that bad

There is sort of an informal system, run through the Mastodon social network. and certain discord servers., But the election swamped it. And many of the best people on it, were occupied with there own crisis.

And how useful is that, If you have to utilize hard tech in a bad mental state.

I've been wondering where my activism needs to go in these times, this might be it

I can't wait for my Hiatus this year,not that i won't be working during it. I love all the various things i do. But I don't commit to projects, that are time intensive or have real deadlines during it.. and just take care of my own development as a writer/technologist/spiritual leader in training. Usually Runs Nov 15th through end of January, but it got bumped back a bit, this year starts on the 20th.

Science and Technology News sucks lately, but not in the way you think.. There's avtually good reason for hope if you put down your New York Times, and pick up Scientific American, or start watching Nova, et al. Or there would be if there were qualified people to actually report on the News

Due to layoffs and budget cuts most of the people who were actually good at this stuff are no longer working. What's left is a bunch of Junior writers whom are overworked to the point of collapse, and AI.

Someone online recently suggested that yours truly should.do that work. But when i told him the approximate cost just to try the idea .There was a sudden silence. Digital artist hang outs be like that :)

I take Mondays as a slow day. I'm a semi professional church worker.

I also do a lot of work for intentional internet communities

Currently I'm the editor of the tilde.town zine. amongst other things. Wednesday-Sunday are busy for me. I also support a couple of older autistic people 65+ by answering my phone at odd hours and performing seemingly random Google searches or whatever. I'm busy. I like what i do

That's why i take Monday slowly/off completely. Everyone who is not an ableist dingus understands this.

Well this morning one of the aforementioned ableist dingui made a comment about how he can't wait to see me have a full 40 hour work week and fail at it.

That's not what he said but it's what he meant

Excuse me do you think i only do what i do because i can't get a "real job"? Do you believe that your "real job" has more value then mine.. Do you look down on me for taking one day slowly..

Most of the time i can't even take off because... You have to get paid, and it is my job to ensure that happens..

So don't fuck with me Mr Direct Support Specialist. I just might "flake out" on your pending raise... Hmmm think about that or did you just think that happened every 18 months by magic. Or next time i have to negotiate with the various state agencies i might just let them give you only a 1.75% raise instead of that 5% i actually got you this year.

in addition to all the other "bullshit" i do.. I also take care of you. Despite the fact that you do nothing to deserve my time and attention.

I believe that all people have an inherent dignitary and worth. That is not forfeit. No matter what their worth is to the capitalist system, even if you're a shitty person.

So Yes i fight for you too even though you've done nothing in the past two years to earn my commitment